I Just Don’t Attend Church

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By: Shea Harris

The last time I went to church was…heavens I don’t even know when. I think it was sometime in August of 2016. For someone who believes in God and puts all my trust in him, you’d think I’d be doing a better job at attending the Lord’s house. Well surprise! I’m not. In September of 2015, one of my main focuses was finding a home church. Since then, my focus has shifted. I’ve spent more time acknowledging the blessings God has bestowed upon me. I’ve spent more time sharing my testimony of how good God is. I’ve spent more time sleeping in on Sundays.

I find myself wondering why am I able to hit up brunch on Sundays but not church on Sundays? To be completely transparent, I don’t want to. I rather invest my time and energy into building a spiritual connection with God instead of finding a church to help me on this journey. I’ve become completely lazy with finding a church in Miami because of my bad experiences. I rather let those experiences haunt me and poison my thoughts on church than find another place to attend to change my mentality.

I had become so comfortable with my church in North Carolina that I didn’t want any other one to compete with it. I was okay with just visiting my home church (every blue moon) whenever I was in town. I shrugged off the guilt I was feeling whenever someone asked me if I found a church home. I stopped looking and stopped attending. Every time I said I was going to the House of the Lord, I found myself “oversleeping”. There’s this beautiful thing called the internet though. I could tune into my home church via web, but guess who hasn’t. Yep, you guessed correctly. Me.

I feel like I’m at a weird point in my walk with God. I understand who is he is, how jealous he is and what he can do, but for some reason I don’t find myself walking through the church doors to go and worship him. Maybe because I’m scared I’ll love a church down here more than the one in North Carolina. Maybe because I don’t want to get too churchy.  Or maybe it’s because I’m just straight up lazy. To be real with you, I think its a combination of everything.

I don’t want to commit to another church. I don’t want to lose who I am. I don’t want to take out 2 hours of my Sunday to give formal thanks. Well ladies and gentleman, this Sunday I’ll be attending a new church in South Florida and I’m excited. I know God is going to bless me. I don’t care if he blesses me with a bomb parking spot at the church on a busy Sunday morning, it’s a blessing! I know he’s going to move and shift my views around. I most definitely know he’s going to show me what I’ve been missing out on though.

I figured I’d share my story with you all because, I mean I’m supposed to real with y’all right? Have you been torn between attending church and sleeping the day away? What do you all struggle with when it comes to walking in the House of the Lord? I’d love to hear from you!

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8 thoughts on “I Just Don’t Attend Church

  1. The entire time I was reading this post I couldn’t help but to raise my hand to the sky and say “amen.” It’s going on a year now (April 2016) since I have stepped foot into a Church. Lack of interest, laziness, and contradictions with the traditional Church beliefs and my own personal beliefs can sum up my reasons for my hiatus from the entering my home Church’s doors in over a year.

    Honestly, I believe I’m trying to become more of a spiritual person versus identifying myself with one particular religion that was taught to me growing up under my parents care. I will never doubt God and his will and power to showering us with many blessings in life. I would rather spend my Sunday mornings doing activities that I feel are more productive and fulfilling to my life.

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    1. I’m so glad you were able to relate! During my absence from church I tried to get away from making myself feel guilty. I remember while growing up in my parents home, I went to church every Sunday (especially if I didn’t have to work). Thanks for sharing your experience and input!

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  2. Can I Getta Amen?!! Growing up my family was pretty much the entire Music Ministry at our church. So I had to go to every service, choir rehearsal, watch night service, etc… I think I’m “churched” out lol. Since moving back to Miami after college I haven’t been to my old church and put very little effort in finding another one. I don’t think you need a church home to have a relationship with God.

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    1. So glad you were able to see where I was coming from! Growing up I was on the youth choir and the dance team. I realized over time I went because my parents forced me to, not because I wanted to. I think its super important to develop a relationship with God though. If you’re just attending church and don’t have a relationship, it’s kind of counterproductive. Thanks for reading!

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  3. My struggle was different. I struggled with leaving my home church to find a new church. I wasn’t being fulfilled and felt like I was just filling a spot in the pew. I’ve now found a new church. I will say even in not going it’s fine. You can still worship God in your own way, on your own time however you see fit.

    On days where I don’t wanna go, I ask myself, ‘how can you manage to get up for work every weekday but not make one day to attend church? It won’t kill you to go.’

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  4. My husband and I have been struggling with this since we moved to Miami (about 5 months ago). Over these 5 months, we’ve visited one church… ONE! We’ve promised to try harder than we have been to get up and go, so I created a list of possibles to tackle over the next month. Though church doesn’t define our love for God or our relationship with him, it has always been a positive part of my life that I’m not ready to give up. Hopefully we find a home, and I hope you do too! Great post 🙂

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    1. When I first moved here I only visited one church as well. After a while I had to make the decision to step out and try something different. I still have more research to do, but I’m excited to see where this journey leads me. I wish you both luck on your search! Thanks so much for checking out the post!

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