By: Shea Harris
It’s been a long time. I shouldn’t have left you. I know its been a good little minute since I last shared an actual blog post but y’all, I needed to take some time to myself. I decided to take special care of my health these past few weeks so I wouldn’t burn myself out. I’ve honestly just been in this mood lately where I’ve been selfish as hell because I deserve *Mama D voice*. I wanted to make sure that I was taking care of myself because if I don’t, I mean who will. We still have one more week of July and honey I am about ready for it to be over. I have been exhausted mentally and physically.
I’m pretty sure I experienced my first moment of being homesick during 4th of July weekend and lets just say I was not here for it. I’ve been battling internally about a few decisions I have made and need to make, which is exhausting within itself. I’ve been given more responsibilities at my job, which forces me to remain sane. With the deaths of Philando Castille and Alton Sterling the first week of July, I just needed to disconnect. I did speak on the unfortunate events during that week on my YouTube channel though.
I’ve barely attended events during this month because I haven’t been in the mood. It’s kind of odd to me that I haven’t really been pressed to go anywhere, but there’s nothing wrong with enjoying your humble abode. But let’s be honest, I have enjoyed having these past few weeks to myself though! I’ve binge watched Steven Universe, East Los High and Beauty and The Beast, started working back out to burn off some steam and had a few lazy days.
As I said before, I really just needed to unplug. I felt like I was always in these streets and my butt needed to sit down somewhere. I stepped out very seldom this month, but at least I saved some gas. All in all, don’t feel guilty for taking care of yourself and don’t feel guilty for having a moment. Trust me I’m still working out a few things internally but ya girl is going to keep on pushing and making sure my mental health is on point. Have you been practicing self care lately? If so, what do you do? I’d love to hear from you all!