My Moment of Honesty

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By: Shea Harris

I don’t know if you all can tell, but I’ve been a little off these past two weeks. I honestly haven’t been myself and I promise you I’ve been trying to get back to my normal self. I can’t blame it on lack of inspiration because to be honest, my brain has been overflowing with ideas. I have so many blog posts planned out from now through April, but for some reason I just can’t bring myself to write them out.

I can’t blame it on the lack of time. As much as I complain about not having time for anything, I’ve got to be real with myself: I make time for what I want to make time for. There’s always something to do in Miami. Instead of me trying to make it to every event, I need to think long and hard about which events are worth going to. I need to stop saying yes to everything, which is kind of difficult on my end. I’m not one to be out on the scene all the time, but let’s be honest I love going to events especially if they are free. Whenever I see free it’s hard for me to decline.

I can’t blame it on the lack of resources. That’d honestly be foolish of me. Every time I open up my gmail, there are tons of resources. I get weekly emails from Maya Elious, Mattieologie, Chakayla J. Taylor and Alisha Nicole sharing free e-books and webinars to expand my brand. Sometimes I attend the webinars and download the workbooks, but other times I just let the emails continue flowing in. I’m pretty sure I get a little alarmed and overwhelmed when I see emails coming in with subject lines Want To Expand Your Business/Brand. I knew prior to launching my blog I wanted to turn this into a business. I just didn’t think it would happen this soon! I’ve come to the conclusion:

I’m overwhelmed.

But not in an oh I’m stressed, what was I thinking, why did I think I could do this mindset. I’m more so overwhelmed because on March 17th I filed my name with the state of Florida. I am officially a brand, business and a boss. Shea What’s Real, LLC is on and poppin as of the referenced date. I was excited as soon as I typed in my credit card information to complete my transaction, but as soon as I received the certificate I was nervous. Shea What’s Real, LLC is more than just a business. Just like with anything I attach my name to, I take pride in it and it’s not taken lightly. I want to make sure I’m doing everything that lines up with my purpose and God’s vision for me.

I began advertising my services and it seems to be going okay. I don’t think I’ll fully be content with everything until I begin seeing things manifest. I have so many ideas and visions for my business it sometimes seems bigger than life. I don’t want to feel like a small fish in a big pond anymore. I want to be the big pond. I want will shake this feeling of doubt and discouragement. I will be bigger than I see myself. I will continue to be a boss and whip everything into shape! I want you to know you are not alone *MJ voice*. I’m over here feeling bad just by writing this post but just like with my friends, I want to be transparent with you. I don’t want you all thinking I have it all together. My life is a rollercoaster as well. Keep in mind like at the amusement park, the ride slows down and we have to get off the ride eventually.

 

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